Tuesday, April 29, 2014

The Strong and The Weak

I'm reading a book by Paul Tournier its called The Strong and The Weak.  Published in 1963 and I think originally written in the late 1940's ... it's really an amazing book by a man some say was the most influential Christian phsycian and counselor of the last century. 

I find myself surprised at how often the things that were happening in culture of those days are the very same we deal with today.

Conflict in relationships is probably the greatest weakness we are faced today as a nation.  Here are a few excerpts I've found quite interesting. 

I hope you find a nugget of information that will be helpful for you in your daily life.


“One can never foresee the means that God will use  to touch a man’s heart, the roads along which he will drive him, nor the moment at which he will intervene in his life.  It may be at the height of happiness, or in the midst of a painful crisis.  It may be within a fervent religious community, or in utter solitude.  It may be by means of a slow process of evolution, or quite suddenly and unexpectedly.  But it is always through the free intervention of the Spirit.”

 

“Constraint is the negation of all spiritual life.  We can help others by telling them of our experiences and convictions.  But let us have the honesty to tell them of our failures and doubts as well.  Above all, we must beware of the natural inclination which makes us think that others must come to faith by the same road as ourselves.  If we exert any sort of pressure upon them, we shall inevitably harm them.  Pressure of that kind will either force their decision, in which case we shall be usurping God’s place; or else it will arouse their resistance, and we shall have become for them an obstacle to faith.”

 

“The rewarding thing about introspection of this sort is not so much what one discovers as the fact that one discovers it.  in fact, as we perceive, time and time again, that we are more bankrupt than we imagined, that the things we thought we could put down on the credit side must often rather be put down as debits, that weakness hides even under our strong reactions, we undergo the most fruitful of human experiences.  We abandon our futile attempts to save ourselves from our inner disquiet by means of victories in the social struggle, by drawing comfort from our reputation and all that we do to fortify it.  Rather do we turn at last towards God, the only true answer to human distress.”

That is the only way to get the insight which will enable us to discriminate in our own lives between genuine acts of will and mere automatic reactions – we must turn towards God in prayer.” … “In the silence before God we soon see that this action or that remark was not in conformity with his will, that they were weak or strong reactions, cowardly flight or proud bravado, the aim of which in either case was to preserve us from our uneasy conscience. 

                In the silence before God we thus come gradually to a better knowledge of ourselves; we come to know more clearly , at one and the same time, what are our weaknesses and sins and the quite new road we must follow in order to overcome them – that we must confess them in order to receive the divine pardon, instead of hiding them in order to receive the praises of men.

                Prayer will not deliver us from our natural reactions, whether weak or strong; but it will bring us to recognize them for what they are, and thus continually to fresh experiences of grace.”

 

“Does mans value lie in his strength, in his aptitude for elbowing his way through life, for extricating himself from difficulties, for defending himself and imposing his will on others?  Such are the questions which crowd in on our minds.

                A man’s true value consists in his likeness to God.  What gives value to his thoughts, his feelings and his actions, is the extent to which they are inspired by God, the extent to which they express the thought, the will, and the acts of God.  Sometimes, it is God’s power which is manifested in a man’s courage, in the authority with which he speaks and the strength with which he acts.  But sometimes, also, it is Gods tenderness which we observe in the heart of one who is weak, his creative suffering that we discover in a tormented soul.”

               

“The fact is that our whole civilization suggests to us a false scale of values.  It accords positive value to all that is strong, and negative value to all that is weak.  It is shameful to be weak, sensitive, pitiable, or affectionate.”

 

“What mankind needs in our day, if its to escape the catastrophe towards which it is being led by our rationalist and technical civilization, is just these qualities of kindness, conscience, emotion, sensitiveness, beauty, and intuition, which lie repressed and asleep deep in the hearts of those whom that civilization despises.

                These are real ‘ frozen assets’.  Instead of being mobilized as a matter of urgency, they are locked up in broken lives, which are discarded because they are labeled ‘weak’.”

 

“But we are well aware that along with our successes we have known defeat, and that no doctrine and no experience has been able to preserve us from it.  And the further we advance in the Christian life the more we become aware of our sin.  It is as if weights were continually being added to one of the pans of a balance; and each time this happens we need more of God’s grace in the other pan in order to re-establish the equilibrium.  But this equilibrium is always unstable, so that the very slightest weight is enough to upset it; discouragement and doubt are at our door.  it is then that we are tempted to shut our eyes to our defeats, to go back to the old method of covering up by means of strong reactions – and the temptation is the greater the further we think we have advanced along the road of the spiritual life.  But to do so would be at the same time to deprive ourselves of the grace which alone can redress the balance.”

 

“God wants us to love in ourselves the person created by him in his image, worthy of being tended with care, of being protected so that it may grow properly.  It must indeed be pruned, but so that it may bring forth fruit, not so as to destroy it.”

Friday, April 11, 2014

We're all in this together


Last night was the first day of soccer practice for my 5 year old.  The most exciting part for him was putting on the new shin guards and quad length soccer socks he got for practice. 

My wife tends to our little 12 week old Cullen in the car as the wind blows strong across the soccer field, the blue sky fading to gray as the April sun is beginning its descent.  Reese stays near in her rainboots, complaining most of the time that she wished we would have remembered to bring her tennis shoes.  But she’s a trooper and makes great strides as I time her as she runs to the pine tree with the big shadow.  19 seconds, each of the three times.  She bathes in the attention and I’m happy to give it to her.  its not often lately that we get out of the patterns of our house work and remodeling to see the kids in a new light.  It does make a difference in our appreciation for them.  When was the last time you got out?

 Our son, as tall or taller than the other boys, looks about 10 years older than he is because now his baby locks are rough, dense, cropped by the barber just the other day.
 
Reese runs wild but her shyness makes an appearance when other little ones stray too close or are going to play on the equipment she is headed for.  "Do you want to play with those other girls?" I ask her.  “Umm, no fanks Dad.”  It makes me smile just to think about her voice.  Her Boston accent.  Which is really unique because her mother and I were born and raised in Minneosta.  Her red apple cheeks, rosy and blush from the wind and running around in those rain boots which eventually came to give her a big red line across her shin.  A fact she didn’t fail to keep from us, saying that she too … could have used some new "shin gawds".

 
These moments help to remind me of the big picture.  It wasn’t that long ago the little ones were nursing on their mom,  like Cullen is now.  What do you do to appreciate those moments?  Pictures, journals ... ? Are there things you wish you would have done differently or more often, or less often, with your little ones?
 
My goals is not to make you feel down about the past, but more importantly what you are looking forward to in the future?  What changes have you made in your life to not take it too seriously?  Have you reached that point yet?  The moment in time when you realize that your life could end at any time?  Any day?  I'm turning 35 this year and realize that in 5 years my life is going to be close to half over, if I live to the average life expectancy of an adult in America.  I've made some mistakes in my life, but I have to say, I feel God has put me, through that adversity, right where He wants me.  I would change some of the sins, if I could, but I wouldn't change my life right now, for anything.  Those trials I faced still have an affect on my life and sometimes negatively.  I need your prayer that God would help me move through those moments when I occasionally get buried in my past defeats.  Those times I gave in to satan's lies and deceit.  I struggled with an eating disorder, an affair within marriage, falling from the belief of God, even the loss of a potential  NFL contract because of my own selfishness and inhibitions. 

Please remember that when you face a trial, adversity or difficult situation that you are not alone.  No, we are all facing some sort of demon and together, knowing that others are going through the same situation, we can find hope in God and comfort in the knowledge that we are in this whole thing together.

If you need a prayer, would you please put it in the comment section of this posting?  Don’t hesitate.  If you read this or the following verse and you feel alone or like no one can understand what you are feeling or going through, I am urging you to please, comment with your heart.  It would be my pleasure to pray, and to have others pray as well.

 

 - To Know Him and To Make Him Known -

 

1 Peter 5:8-9

New International Version (NIV)

8 Be alert and of sober mind. Your enemy the devil prowls around like a roaring lion looking for someone to devour. 9 Resist him, standing firm in the faith, because you know that the family of believers throughout the world is undergoing the same kind of sufferings.

Friday, April 4, 2014

"Kicking the tires" of cohabitation ...

My nephew is considering living with his girlfriend, who happens to be my wife's youngest sister.  Not too complicated, but my nephew will most likely become my brother-in-law.  My wife's family is from Arkansas so what can you say?  I'm only joking!  Don't hate on me you ridgerunners, you!

So after contemplating their idea of living together for about a split second I was a little upset, a lot upset because my wife and I had some major problems in our life, mainly due to my weak reactions to my own insecurities and failing faith.  Our sexual deviance before marriage caused a large rift in the fabric of our marriage and we were not prepared, I know I wasn't, to deal with the cataclysmic events that followed. 

I wrote the following letter home yesterday, to my wife regarding the cohabitation.  I believe you will see my point of view and would welcome any replies you may have.  Keep in mind I was venting and grammar and punctuation may not be well completed.  (like it is anyway!)


You suffered pain. You suffered heartache. You were torn apart and I got to know all too well God’s wrath during those times. We did not come through unscathed. There are hurts, pains and memories we pray God would blot out of our memories. We are thankful that He has, in every way, graced us with His mercy, His love and yes, His forgetfulness following His forgiveness.

To not share this concept that marriage is the most important, fundamental building block of all things to me is in fact a sin. So I feel obligated to share with them as to not present a mixed message. Cohabitation is not OK. The worship of God, knowing who He is, only this can surmount the importance He has given the institution He created. He will not take lightly to the idea of rebuking His creation. To scoff at God, to laugh in his face, to say that you know better than He? Now as a follower, as a believer, someone who has heard from the mouth of God the importance of his creations, His people and his covenants, to have your loved ones not take seriously those words, is akin to a slap in our face for saying that they would know better than God, than fellow believers who have been through the fire of sexual deviance regarding God’s laws. There is a physical pain deep inside when my mind pours over the potential for the disastrous results that they face by creating this hurdle, before their lives together were to even begin.

I am extremely concerned for this situation and I pray to Him there is another way for things to work out, as I feel deeply moved to say that He has other options than living together before marriage.

Most of all, I would like to say, you are my one and only all-time favorite and I am blessed for you.

 

Thursday, April 3, 2014

The Weak and The Strong

I have been slacking.

Although initially established to keep me accountable to you, the three or four people who may read this, in reading my bible, journaling and sharing events in my life which may be of interest to others, cause you to laugh, cry or roll your eyes.  Well, keeping up with this has not been easy.

Three kids now, the newest one is 12 weeks old.  A son.  Beautiful baby boy.  Definitely takes after his mom.  So do the other two.

House remodel is crazy.  Why does no one warn you the money pit that house remodeling is?  I scrimp and save and work extra jobs to pay for the insulation, wiring, duct work, switches, outlets, lumber, screws, nails, sub floor, flooring, sheetrock, tools, mud, tape, paint, trim ... the list goes on and on.  And that is only the latest project!

Then throw in full-time job, wife, kids, family time, date night, friend night, bible study, church, other part-time jobs ... I am not complaining but holy cow!  I don't know what I would be able to accomplish if I didn't have a house to work on.

So, back to business. 

After reading Chip Ingram's Good to Great in God's Eyes, I decided to start reading more books.  Currently I'm chipping away at Paul Tournier's The Strong and The Weak.  He was a Christian Swiss Physician who led the way in pastoral counseling.  The book was published in 1954 but parallels the problems we face today as a culture, lost to our own devices.  Searching for an answer, a response to the calling of life.

Want to know what I took away so far?  We are all identical inside.  The way we respond to life is the only difference.  Do you react weak or strong? 

I am working now and have not much time to post on my break, but will continue speaking my mind, my thoughts on this book. 

I'd like to hear yours, if you have any.  Have you read it?  What was your thoughts?  Did you learn anything about yourself?  Lessons on parenting or being a child?  Do you have more grace for others now?

Praying who all read this, find God's peace.


"Fixing our eyes on Jesus, the pioneer and perfecter of faith.  For the joy set before him he endured the cross, scorning its shame, and sat down at the right hand of the throne of God."
 - Hebrews 12:2